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Last night, I went through all my personal drama without a vice. I love that! It is so amazing and HARD to go without a vice. I did not jump into the food. I went to bet. I stayed up a little later than I would have liked because I kept stressing over my ordeal over and over. What could I have done better? They are so wrong! Does this mean I need to get a new job even before I leave town next Sunday? Five million questions that I didn’t want to think about were beating through my head.
This is usually when I would jump into the food. It completely distracts me from all of my inner stress. Food really does that for me - it provides an intense escape. It is just me and the food when I am stuffing myself. Nothing else. Is this a good thing? No. I may be in my coma during the whole eating process, but afterwards … that is an entirely different story.
My higher power was with me last night. My higher power helped me go straight to bed. It was late anyhow and I my body deserved the love.
Last night, I was without a vice. Isn’t that beautiful?


Posted in General on March 30th, 2009

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