Wanting to Binge
Okay, so I am wanting to binge this evening. As a way to resist, I am letting myself focus on the great food I will get tomorrow. For now, I do not need the food. That is working for me.
Also, I am getting myself to bed a little sooner in order to assure that I don’t binge. I just weighed myself today and I am at 120.5 pounds. This is the weight I get to right before I have binged the last couple of times. I do not want to do it and getting over this hump is not easy.
My friend who is aware of my problem has been extra kind and checked up on me several times. What a great friend! I have never had someone look out for me before with my binging and it is such a huge compliment. I am very grateful.
There is a big part of me that wants to binge. I am grateful that it is the end of the day. It makes not going into the food so much easier.
May 4th, 2009 at 11:35 am
Hey Jenna,
I write the Healthy BPM blog here and want to congratulate you for hanging in there. As I was struggling with my binges I couldn’t wait for bedtime so that I didn’t have to deal with it. I knew that the morning brought a “legitimate” opportunity to eat. I’ve often told people that getting past the urge is like being in a 12-Step program. Although I feel good about getting past-over-and through it, it sometimes feels like the temptation is always lurking. I’m here if you need another support system to talk you down.