Walking Around in My Bathing Suite
… at a water park was very eye opening. First of all, it made me very aware that I am not happy with my body. My abs just are not where I want them to be. I want them to be flat and for the pooch in the front to be gone. Just go away! It was impossible for me to not look at other bodies and constantly compare myself to them. Most of the time, I thought of how it was when I was younger. I thought about what I would have thought if I saw someone with my body. It was not fun judging myself to such an extreme.
It was a big lesson for me that day. I know I am not at my goal weight and I will keep working towards it. I am not going to listen to other people’s opinions. My goal weight is healthy and I have spoken and worked with professionals to know what is healthy. I am not in any denial on this one.
I am, however, definitely obsessing still. I need to move on, be patient, and be confident that I will reach my weight goal and stay there.
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