Resisting a Binge
This is super hard to do. I am at home, tired, alone, and bored. Food would be an easy thing to give into at this point. But luckily, I got rid of the food … well, not completely. I have food in a package to mail for my brother. It is taped up and everything, however, it is still something I could break into like a desperate maniac if I chose …. I am going to resist. I am hoping that writing this blog helps me out with this mental struggle. This is not an easy time for me. I have to make sure that I keep myself busy. I literally posted two signs that read “Health = Success.” It is actually very helpful and motivating as I detox from all the sugar and flour (the two ingredients I believe are what trigger my addiction to the fullest). To be really honest, if eating whatever I want, whenever I wanted did not have any effect on my body and well being, I would be in the food all the time. But then again, I would probably go broke because I would spend so much money on food. It’s amazing how strong my addiction to food has been and will always be. Today, I am taking things a moment at a time and giving it to my higher power. If I don’t, I will dive into the food. I really don’t want that to happen.
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