Eating Disorder Talk

I’ve been missing for awhile, I know. I hope at least one person will see this entry pop up on their feed reader and say, "finally!"

My last entry, I talked about my daughter and I both having the flu and what that means for my lifestyle: it becomes about making her feel better and medicating myself as heavily as possible so that I can do everything possible to make her feel better - and sleep. Which doesn’t happen for me, if she’s sick. Anyways.

She was hit with ear infections and bronchitis, then that cleared up to leave tonsilitis. Once that was done, then I got to be sick, but by that time, I was already on the mend. I still have a bit of a spontaneous barking cough, but really, I’m all better.

Unfortunately, the three day hangover prior to getting the flu brought about some weight loss. Then the flu and it’s subsequent digestive distress - well eating didn’t produce pretty results - led to further weight loss. It’s been about a week that I’ve been able to eat without concern for intestinal implosion and a well-timed week, too.

Cooking Christmas dinner for six adults when you’re a single mom to a spirited toddler means a lot of prep work, which generally translates to a lot of snacking as you go and a lot of leftovers because being over-prepared, food-wise is definitely a priority over not having enough to go around. I probably had enough for a second dinner. Which means I did what? Oh, right, binge-ate leftovers with the excuse that I have weight to gain back and that they’re perishable.

And this is where the medical issue comes to light. I’ve been eating so much the past few days, more than 4000 calories daily, I’d assume and enough to add two inches of bloat to my waist. Yet my hypoglycemia is rearing it’s head. In actuality, it’s not been limited to the past week.

For the past six weeks or so, really since I intentionally started eating more, a couple of times a week my blood sugar plummets. This is worrisome for a few reasons, the two most important being: when I was diagnosed as having low blood sugar, my doctor at the time predicted that without maintenance and dedicated care of it, I would be diabetic within five years - it’s been over eight, now; I’m experiencing these plummets after eating, not in response to a lack of food - this means my condition is heightened by regular consumption of fats, proteins, sugars and starches - which leads me to concern over what a maintenance diet would entail.

I suppose a visit to my doctor is needed, to get blood work done and assess the damage I’ve done to my pancreas. Now, if I could just stop procrastinating about it.