Over the Hump
I didn’t binge on Thursday! I got into a habit of binging once/leading to twice per week. Didn’t do it. … and I still have not done it. It feels great. I feel very on top of things in my life outside of food because of it. Food can not only be haunting for me; it can be a distraction. This week, without the binge, I have no distractions. It is a great miracle in my life and I truly thankful for this miracle. I find myself eating better and less obsessively. I am starting to realize exactly how healthy I am with my body. When I really look at all that I am doing for myself, I am very proud. I eat my vegetables and fruit on a daily basis. I get the daily nutrients I need. And the portions I eat are very balanced (I use a food scale). I have spent so much time on wanting to be thin rather than taking the actions of a thin person. I kept looking at my “thin-ness” as a distant person. It was this far-off place that did not connect to me. If you see pictures of me, you will see I am a think girl. My insecurity with myself goes very deep. This past week, I really focused on The Sedona Method. I focused on putting that out there for anyone else it could help. Using a set of questions from that method, takes me through a mental journey that helps me really look at my desire to binge. Any time I feel like binging, I pull out the questions. It’s funny. Sometimes, I don’t binge because I am not in the mood to go through the questions. Either way, it is working for my mental state with food. For me, I am not hungry. I feed myself very well and healthfully. It is all in my head.
Now that Thursday has passed, I have broken that weekly ritual. It feels so good to end an awful binging habit. I am very proud of myself and happy to be on a healthy track. G-d bless!
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