My Body Image of Myself
I don’t have a great image of myself. When I look in the mirror and even when I imagine my body, I do not see how thin I am. Instead, I see my flabby skin where it is not firm. I notice my thighs when I am in my underwear. Even when I was underweight, my thighs were still not where I wanted them to be. Looking back at the pictures when I was underweight, I did not look good at all. I looked scary, but in the moment, I still thought I had weight to lose. I could not escape the fat image of myself. How do I escape that? How do I start to see myself for what I really am? I am skinny! And as I say that my more dominating “No, you are fat!” shouts back. Aaack! I bet that if my own self image changed, my body would have an easier time staying thin. … am I making any sense?
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