Eating Disorder Talk

On one of my other blogs, I created a page with twenty-eight resolutions for 2008. Really, I’m not that into the New Year’s holiday and celebration. I think of it as simply the passing of another day, month, year - why throw a party or promise yourself to quit smoking?

Coincidentally though, I’m assessing my life and happiness level and where I’d like to be (and the path I’d like to follow, to get there), and have come up with quite a few 180s I’d like to do.

So, why not sync it up with the rest of the (resolution- making) world?

Here’s my 28, for my 28th year:

Zoë

• potty training
• move to toddler bed
• gymnastics/tumbling classes of some sort
• limit tv time to an hour per day (except date nights)
• make a scrapbook of sorts (i hate every single baby book i’ve ever come across; i’d better just do it my damn self)
• limit fast food to once per month
• make blanket (for toddler bed) and curtains for her room

work, money & lifestyle

• renovate apartment (remove unwanted, restore, paint)
• establish a routine again, allowing at least one hour each, per day for: cleaning, blogging, bookkeeping, me time and Zoë time
• limit starbucks to once per week, as a reward for meeting goals
• blog posting frequency: fmtm? daily; edt 5X per week; tib daily; cut weekly
• stick to monthly budget
• use half of money after expenses to pay debts off; the other half to meet lifestyle goals
• make twice 2007’s blogging income
• look into freelance writing: resume, portfolio, research, specs, etc.
• do work as it’s assigned, because letting it pile up only leads to frustration and overwhelmtion
• complete one distance ed class towards degree
• bake weekly
• have a family dinner monthly
• learn to knit

health & mentalness & other crap, too

• aim for eight hours sleep nightly; wake early, not sleep later
• gain weight - to be a size 1, at least
• the serenity prayer in action: quit trying to change fh and his lifestyle/actions, work on acceptance
• go to the dentist
• read 100 books
• eat five servings of fruit and/or veggies a day
• grow hair to mid-back length
• start doing yoga weekly, at least (maybe bikram’s?)

What’s interesting is exactly how much I freaked out a little at the thoughts of gaining enough weight to be a size 1. Now, with the holiday binge-eating (still happening) having had an effect on all of the sickness weight loss I had, I’ve gained a few pounds - not sure how many. Enough to increase my waist by two inches over it’s smallest measurement of 22 and 5/8" in the past month.

I had to mentally bitch slap myself. I literally had an internal hissy fit at my own brain, for being so idiotic as to think of a size 1 as huge. I had to use similes like "a size one is to Teri Hatcher as special brownies are to munchies and round-framed, rose-coloured glasses." This year is going to be a tough one.

But I really think that I can do it.

What are you going to do in 2008?