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You don’t have to look fat to feel fat. I could simply see some stunning girl in a cute outfit looking absolutely beautiful and feel fat. Or I can just put on a particular top. … or I can binge. When I binge, it takes away my love for my body. Not forever because I stop binging for awhile after a binge. No matter what, I cannot deny how I feel about my reflection in the mirror. I don’t like it. I can see my body has grown a bit after eating all the crap. I feel so terrible and I don’t like it. Then, the cravings that remain after the binge for a couple of days - that is not fun either. So, here I am - tired and feeling all crappy. It sucks, but it is what it is. I know, I know, I am a skinny girl. It doesn’t mean that I have the same self image problems. Even when I call myself skinny, I imagine my big butt looking horrible in tight jeans.
This is how I am feeling at the moment. Hopefully, this feeling will pass soon.


Posted in General on April 3rd, 2009

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