Eating Disorder Talk

Last week, I talked about my new hair cut, accomplishing tasks and television, amongst other stuff! This week’s is below and I’m going to delve into stupid things like surprising beanie babies, my eyes and healthy habits (of which I have few to none).

Appetizer – When was the last time you were surprised?

When I weighed myself earlier this week, I had gained four pounds from (Canadian) Thanksgiving indulging. That was a big, depressing surprise.

But more so was the day before yesterday when my daughter busted out her first clear, “Mommy,” because for the week or so prior to this busting out, she was saying something like, “Mamameeeee.” That was an awesome surprise.

Soup – Fill in the blanks: My eyes are ________, but I wish they were __________.

My eyes are expressive and emotionally-sensitive, but I wish they were green all of the time, not just when I’m very happy, cuddly or sad.

Salad – If you were a Beanie Baby, what would you look like and what would your name be?

I would be a little violet coloured lemur, I fear. With some sort of cliché play on words name such as “Violette.”

Main Course – Name two things you consistently do that you consider to be healthy habits.

Ummm. I’m seriously at a loss on this one….

Okay, well, I basically go to bed and wake up at the same time everyday – but since that results in a huge sleep deficit, I don’t know how healthy that actually is.

Secondly, I am extremely open about my emotions. That’s good, right? Because, nothing is ever bottled up within me, catharsis is embraced and I find it easy to (over) analyze my feelings. I also consistently discuss these feelings, conflicts and angst with close friends, looking to them for both support and their opinions.

Dessert – What brand of toothpaste are you using these days? Do you like it? Why or why not?

I am using some basic form of Crest that I bought a few months ago when it was on sale. I buy things like toiletries on sale and then save them until I’ll need them and in this case, I wish I hadn’t. This over-minty tube is the bane of my brushing and generally makes my mouth burn if I stop moving my toothbrush for even one quick second it seems. I’m almost done the tube and look forward to switching to my daughter’s Dora the Explorer bubble gum flavoured stuff soon!

Last week I talked about art, emotionality and being inefficient. This weeks is below!

Appetizer - How are you today?

Today I’m a mixture between melancholy and elation.

Melancholy because I’ve gotten my hair cut: some chunky side-swept bangs that need taming and the layers cleaned up. I feel as though I look edgier than I was, which is not bad because I do love edgy; I also feel as though I’m trying to diminish my mom role with a new look. So I’m swinging back and forth repeatedly between hating it and loving it and have plans in the near future to add a new colour to it – a deep mahogany-esque rinse.

I’m elated because I finally feel as though my to do list is shrinking and I’m no longer sinking under the weight of everything I have to do which seems as though it will never get done.

Soup - Name 3 television shows you watch on a regular basis.

I don’t have cable, so this doesn’t really apply – except I do rent new seasons of Scrubs, House and Desperate Housewives as they become available and then watch them in a marathon fugue.

Salad - What’s the scariest weather situation you’ve experienced?

Um, thunder and lightening, I suppose. Weather is pretty tame in Vancouver – rain for 8-10 months of the year and sun or sunny periods for the rest, give or take a week of snow-like flurries.

Main Course - If you could wake up tomorrow morning in another country, where would you want to be?

I think I’d like to be somewhere in north-eastern Europe. I’ve heard tale of amazing work and childcare programs there, and from what I’ve read up on, their medical, addictions counseling and opinions, and sexual education programs are amazing and completely in line with my ideals.

Dessert - What do you usually wear to sleep?

I am a standard teeshirt or tank top and boxers or flannel pajamas kind of girl. Whether sleeping alone or not, I‘m all about being cozy in my fetal position.

This week, I’m trying a new idea - every Friday I will complete the Friday’s Feast. Since I often write ahead of the actual days my posts go up, I will be a week behind, though.

So, without further adieu, I give you my first Friday’s Feast.

Appetizer: What is your favorite type of art?

I really enjoy a lot of impressionist paintings but also the morbid artwork that you’d find from Barlowe or Alex Grey, who did the TOOL album art for Salival and 10,000 Days.

Soup: When was the last time you got a free lunch (or breakfast or dinner)? Who paid for it?

Does coffee count? No, I suppose not. I believe it was about three weeks ago, when my mother-in-law took my daughter and I for brunch at a nearby “diner.” I had meatloaf, garlic mashed potatoes and steamed veggies. Zoë shared with me and also had a few french fries. We all split a chocolate milk shake, too.

Salad: On a scale of 1-10 with 10 being highest, how emotional are you?

I can normally hold it around an eight, but during those more scorned or hormonal or stressed moments, I’m a 10, for sure. Tissues and sleeves are used quite often in my house; you’ll find me giggling, jumping or clapping with happiness just as often as using the tissues.

Main Course: Approximately how long do you spend each day responding to emails?

Something I need to work on - assigning specific emailing times so that I don’t lose focus on what really needs to be done or risk inefficiency. I cumulatively probably spend somewhere around an hour and a half a day responding to emails.

Dessert: To what temperature do you usually set your home’s thermostat?

I don’t have a thermostat to control. I usually turn the knob on my heater up (or what I think is up) if it seems cold and open the windows if it seems hot. I have single-pane older windows in my apartment - that don’t close all the way - but air circulation is a real problem in here, so I’ll normally choose to put on a sweater and crack a window if I’m cold. Just as long as Zoë is a good temperature, I don’t touch the heat.