Eating Disorder Talk

I am not a fan of making a habit of this, but sometimes I just need some caffeine before a show. Lately, I have been totally exhausted and I have been giving myself more time to sleep. In the mornings, there is just a huge part of me that does not want to get up - my body. So, listen … partly. I sleep a little bit longer, but not as long as by weighing down body wants me to sleep.
To wake up and get myself to a high energy these past two days, I have had some caffeine. Now, with my acid reflux, it is not a good idea for me to make a habit of in-taking this caffeine. I have to be wary. In the meantime, I have been loving the taste of the caffeine. Like any food addict - I have fallen in love with this food ritual. I really do love food rituals. It gives me a sense of comfort no matter where I am.
In this case, the food ritual is fine. It is temporary. I may have caffeine tomorrow, but after that, for health reasons, I am cutting myself off for at least a couple of days. I may not even have it tomorrow because I got a slight headache from the caffeine today even.
It amazes me to see how many people can live off a cup of coffee daily. My body really resists it. It’s not the end of the world and it is only a drink - I must keep reminding myself that…