Awfully Tempting Food
I hate all the good yummy food that is out there. There is so much of it and it is all over the place. Walking around and being surrounded by this addictive food has been very difficult for me lately. I love being out really early in the morning or late at night because that’s when all the places are closed. Being back in New York (that’s where I live in case you didn’t know), had been a huge adjustment. It had been highly stressful with trying to get a freakin job and a regular income. I don’t like the stress level I have gotten to. A lot has calmed down for me, but there is still some finalizing with my income that needs to be done. I don’t like not knowing how I am going to make a steady income. I wish everything in life (as far as making a living goes for an artist) could be easier. It has been a rough adjustment this last month. With the everyone talking about the bad economy, it is not helpful. Negative energy has a huge effect on the entire world. And for me, negative energy is highly toxic and not welcome. I don’t like it. I want only the positive. The positive is what helps me and it has put me in a good place. I’m working on it everyday. One day at a time. This weekend (starting today for me), is going to be a great weekend. I have a lot of fun planned for me and I pray that it will help me refresh back into next week. I think it will. I think I need the release from all the responsibility I put on my back. Time with my friends and family - positive. This is super important to me because all this negativity is taking a toll on me.
February 13th, 2009 at 11:26 am
My friend died of anorexia 3 months ago. She was healthy as a horse, had an amazing life, up until about a year and a half ago when she started feeling bad about her body and weight….she died at 88 pounds and I miss her every single day. I pray that this never happens to you or your loved ones. I found a site, pretty standard to this disease some women go through, its called EatingDisorder.com. They have a helpline and more than enough information so that you can learn about this deadly disease that is killing women and even some men around the world. Celebrate life as much as possible!